Sorry, it’s been a while. I did have a fabulous reunion with my children and grandchildren in southern Illinois during the solar eclipse. Then I fell ill with a bad cold and even had some weird symptoms that turned out to be my left eyeball trying to pull itself apart due the the shrinkage that comes with drying aqueous humor as you get old. (I am 68 after all). Then I get behind and the technophobia hits and I have an electronic version or writers block where I have urges to do everything except get at the blog I’m now behind on. Can any of you relate?
During all of this I have been pondering God’s ways with me.
(It takes a lot of pondering because even after 63 years as his child, my thoughts are not his thoughts and my ways are not his ways.)
He seems to allow things into my life that, frankly, I would not choose. THEN he works in almost miraculous ways to cover for the stress so that I am not too overwhelmed and so that I can see his hand at work and relax in the things that I don’t understand.
Last weekend I started having lightning flashes out of the left field of vision and pieces of lint floating in front of my vision. I don’t like to fuss and I am thinking,”if I don’t go get it checked out and it turns out to be serious, then people will be upset at me for not taking care of myself, but I also figured that if I took my PHP’s advice, which is always, “go to the ER” that they would run up a hugh copay and then tell me that I am just old! Besides when would I have time. Then on Monday I had the shortest workday I’ve had in a year, as only two admissions showed up. Then the Lord reminded me that my wife, Lois, sees a great ophthalmologist in Grand Rapids. So I called her office to see if any of the doctors there might have a cancellation and be able to handle a walk in. They did! but I needed to get there in a hurry. The traffic was clear and I arrived 10 min early. The doctor I saw was a little uncertain of what she was seeing so called their “retina specialist” who turns out to be Lois’ doctor and the best in the area. I would have been impossible to schedule with him directly but the Lord worked it out. Of course they didn’t have time to answer my questions so I have to rest in the Lord till I see them again in two weeks. Of course I will have to rest in him then also, but it is so much easier not to let your imagination run on all the possible outcomes when you know what the most likely outcomes might be. They just told me to not do any strenuous lifting and DON’T READ! I reminded them of what I do at work. The Lord led me to wear a piece of paper over my left eye in order to rest it.
With the bad cold, God gave me shorter work days and a long weekend to recover on. I should be just about back to normal in time to return to a full busy week.
Of course I would prefer eyeballs that work perfectly till I die of old age, older age than this that is, and abounding energy for all the kingdoms labors. I guess he is reminding me not to take anything for granted and that it is OK to slow down and take care of myself sometimes. Of course, I wouldn’t mind you putting in a good word for me with the Lord in regards to my eyeball. The doctor told me that, if a thousand little red dots showed up in my vision that I should call back early. I’d rather not experience that, but it is good to know that NO MATTER WHAT God will be with me in that valley also.