Many of the illnesses that I work with are KINDLED. That means that they tend to gradually worsen. It becomes easier to fall into a relapse and harder to recover.
Change for the better or for the worse tends to be like that. It can be discouraging how slowly we replace a bad habit with the healthy. We begin thinking that bad is good and wondering why it doesn’t work out for us. Then we find out that our ways are not his ways neither are our thoughts his thoughts. Then, once in a while, we catch ourselves and yield our members according to a gradually growing awareness of what his ways look like when applied to real life. After a while longer we find ourselves responding in his ways consistently, but must still concentrate to do it. Eventually we respond in his way automatically and wonder how we could have ever considered our old way reasonable.
Change for the worse sneaks up on us quietly. We start hating evil but maybe being a bit fascinated by it. Then we may “taste just a bit of it” and recoil in disgust, Then just as the frog in gradually heated water, goes to sleep and lets himself be cooked; we play around the edges of sinful behavior assuming that we can control it and enjoy the pleasure of sin for a season. Gradually we find ourselves hooked and even wondering what is so bad with it. We may even get to where we call good /bad and bad/good. We may find ourselves attacking those who stand for Christ. My daughter is fighting for the truth of God-spoken creation. She gets her most vicious attacks from fellow Christians who say that the truth is driving off young people. The truth is that evolution is convincing most of our youth that there is no need for a god to explain the intricacies of creation, so they are free to indulge in being their own god.
I pray that the fire of God’s love of all people and hatred of all sin, be kindled and grow in you.
Philippians 1:9 And this I pray that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment.