A friend in Jesus writes. (I have been thinking a lot about this blog entry on Ecclesiastes since I read it. I’m confused about how to deal with my (many) addictions, my perfectionism, and my inability to trust a Heavenly Father after my earthly father sexually abused me. If, in the end, it doesn’t matter, then why keep fighting to get better?, I still struggle every single day with all of the above.
I just don’t know how to respond now. Keep battling my “demons” or just give up and say that it doesn’t matter in the end?)

“If, in the end, it doesn’t matter”—I believe the words of Ecclesiastes are tools to help us get rid of VEXATION OF SPIRIT. They do not imply that because we will move off the scene and will be forgotten by people on this earth, that what we do doesn’t matter; but rather that we should lighten up and rest in Grace. Everything matters to God and He  is on the scene and will still be on the scene after we pass making our feeble efforts matter and projecting their impact into the future and using them as an excuse to pile up treasures in heaven for us. The confusion is that we humans justify being tense and vexing our spirits because after all it matters so much and being tense must be helpful somehow. It is evident that being uptight and taking undue responsibility causes us to be less creative and have less stamina and energy and to make impulsive rash mistakes. SO THE MORE THE MATTER IS: THE MORE WE NEED TO LIGHTEN UP. We need to limit our efforts to, yielding our body members servants  according to a growing picture of God’s ways in action and according to our understanding of His will. Ecclesiastes says this is your gift from God and your limited portion in the tasks of your life: enjoy what you DO have , enjoy who you DO have, do what you DO have available to do, take care of yourself. So what is God’s part in any endeavor? Calling  you, preparing you to be the right one for the task, empowering you, then His are the results, the making up the difference between your efforts and what the situation calls for, the making your efforts worthwhile , the rewarding you for obeying.

“Not that fighting to get better has really helped all that much”—See you are making my point, ie. fighting doesn’t work. We are not to fight to get better but rather to fight to get out of the way of the Holy Spirit moment by moment and let THE ALREADY BETTER ONE live through us. Paul:

I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
The battle is the Lord’s but it is true that we have to resist the devil then the Lord meets us in our feeble obedience and strengthens us and helps us. In a sword fight, if all you do is stand and parry the devil’s thrusts; you will burn out and be wounded over and over. “Because of what the Lord let your father do to you, you are worthless, damaged, why did he let this happen, can you trust him now if he let that happen then etc. etc.” It is important to thrust back. When attacked, have prayer targets such as your pastor to respond to the devil with, ” just for that I’m going to pray for my pastor and God’s power will strengthen him and weaken your kingdom.” Also sing songs or better yet write them and sing them to the Lord and against the attacking one. Martin Luther was frequently depressed. You could borrow his song A MIGHTY FORTRESS IS OUR GOD he wrote that and sang it to the Lord and at the devil and found relief from a month long attack of depression.
Well enough for now please comment on the above so I can clarify. I never am sure how well I am communicating without feedback.


3 thoughts on “DOESN’T MATTER?

  1. This is great! I identified what I need to do – drop my vexing spirit and let the Holy Spirit do His work! Resist the devil and he will flee! Thank you for these good reminders Dr. Bell. It is not flesh and blood at war with us – but powers of darkness. Know your enemy whose one aim is to destroy faith and relationship with the One true and living God. Nothing can separate us from His love. To your friend in Jesus – press on into the Light.

  2. Wow, this really resonates with me on many levels.
    1. I only have to do my best and God will fill in the gaps to have His will be done.
    2. I need to stop fighting my depression and honestly and prayerfully be thankful for what I DO have and what IS good. Let God heal me in His time if He chooses.
    3. Instead of fighting my depression, I will fight the devil by doing my second point.

    Thank you, as always, Dr. Bell.

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