A friend in Jesus writes. (I have been thinking a lot about this blog entry on Ecclesiastes since I read it. I’m confused about how to deal with my (many) addictions, my perfectionism, and my inability to trust a Heavenly Father after my earthly father sexually abused me. If, in the end, it doesn’t matter, then why keep fighting to get better?, I still struggle every single day with all of the above.
I just don’t know how to respond now. Keep battling my “demons” or just give up and say that it doesn’t matter in the end?)
“If, in the end, it doesn’t matter”—I believe the words of Ecclesiastes are tools to help us get rid of VEXATION OF SPIRIT. They do not imply that because we will move off the scene and will be forgotten by people on this earth, that what we do doesn’t matter; but rather that we should lighten up and rest in Grace. Everything matters to God and He is on the scene and will still be on the scene after we pass making our feeble efforts matter and projecting their impact into the future and using them as an excuse to pile up treasures in heaven for us. The confusion is that we humans justify being tense and vexing our spirits because after all it matters so much and being tense must be helpful somehow. It is evident that being uptight and taking undue responsibility causes us to be less creative and have less stamina and energy and to make impulsive rash mistakes. SO THE MORE THE MATTER IS: THE MORE WE NEED TO LIGHTEN UP. We need to limit our efforts to, yielding our body members servants according to a growing picture of God’s ways in action and according to our understanding of His will. Ecclesiastes says this is your gift from God and your limited portion in the tasks of your life: enjoy what you DO have , enjoy who you DO have, do what you DO have available to do, take care of yourself. So what is God’s part in any endeavor? Calling you, preparing you to be the right one for the task, empowering you, then His are the results, the making up the difference between your efforts and what the situation calls for, the making your efforts worthwhile , the rewarding you for obeying.
“Not that fighting to get better has really helped all that much”—See you are making my point, ie. fighting doesn’t work. We are not to fight to get better but rather to fight to get out of the way of the Holy Spirit moment by moment and let THE ALREADY BETTER ONE live through us. Paul: