God wants his people hot or cold. This lukewarm stuff is nauseating to Him and He wants to “spue” us out of his mouth, a nice way of saying he is disgusted with lukewarm. He’ll take a passionate David any day even if David is passionately messed up at times, over a person who sits in the back row at church and doesn’t cause trouble but doesn’t change the world. He’s looking for a Saul to turn into a Paul.
Well I’m needing a spark these days. I believe that God is helping me relate to suffering people by gifting me with chronic pain leading to poor sleep. My usual abundant energy is playing hide and seek. True I’ve only to wait to October till I get a new hip and,if all goes well, the pain will decrease and I’ll have more energy. I guess on this blogging thing that I had come to count on all that energy to tack it on top of all the other things that I do. Lately the Lord has been talking to me about seeking His face in regards to prioritizing and doing the blog when I am dogtired, because it is what He wants. When David went to worship God, the local farmer offered to give the king his oxen and the wood of the plow for the sacrifice and David said “NO why should I offer God that which cost me nothing. So I guess the real act of worship arises more out of doing this despite being tired and not out of the work itself. So pray for me as I seek to be more regular despite being more tired. I want to be HOT not so much in emotional or physical passion but HOT in dependence on Him.
I had a pastor friend who was depressed. He spent many hours trying to stitch together a sermon and then delivered it in a flat monotone due to little energy. The whole time he is thinking, “I shouldn’t be in the pulpit, God needs and deserves enthusiastic pastors to build His church.
At the end of the sermon, as was his habit, he asked those who wanted to pray for salvation or for personal growth to come forwards. Half the church came forwards and the other half knelt to pray where they were and God moved in the people. The pastor swore he heard the Lord say, ” And you thought you had something to do with it!”
So ask the Lord to make you HOT for obedience more than in just passion.
PS: Lois is now a bionic wife with a new pacemaker! She had gotten to where she was too weak to walk to the car and too unsafe to drive with up to 16 seconds without a heartbeat. Sick Sinus Syndrome they called it. She is feeling much better and healing well. Now she has to rebuild her muscles and stamina that have been weakened by disuse.
All my love to my brothers and sisters in Christ who are in chronic pain and chronic tiredness. Do the little you can. It doesn’t take many fish to feed the crowd when Jesus is in it.
PS next blog, Lord willing, On how to spot our lukewarm ways.